A Better Plan…

I’ve grown up in church my whole life, but it was more of a habitual type thing.  I have struggled with clinical depression since I was a young girl.  My 6th grade year, I was a catcher for a local All-Star Softball Team and it was my whole life.  I loved softball with a burning passion, but I never gave God the credit for that talent.

After one of my games that season, my right leg gave out and fell.  The next morning, I woke up and could not walk.  This went on for about 2 months.  I pretty much went to every doctor in the state of Georgia, including some of the best in Tallahassee.  No one could give me an answer.

I miraculously regained my ability to walk after a few therapeutic sessions, still not understanding why or what had just happened to me.

Shortly after, I was diagnosed with clinical depression, meaning it is truly a disease that I struggle with.  It is almost like I am dealing with a separate personality.  On top of that, I was diagnosed with an anxiety order.

During my 8th grade school year, I got into an abusive relationship that I allowed to carry on for a year and a half simply because I felt cared for.  After that relationship was ended, I felt broken and torn.  On June 14th, 2016 – Satan filled me in a way I didn’t even think possible…  I was scared into thinking there was no hope for my life and overdosed on sleep medication.  Before the medication kicked in, God filled me withfear and I called a friend.  I later found out that I died in the ambulance and was “shocked” back to life.

I should have died that night, but God had a different plan for me.  He always has a better plan.
To this day, He uses me and my testimony to draw people away from the idea of suicide and toward the light of Jesus Christ.